Trust. The thing about birth that isn't brought up a lot is how much trust
you need to have in your midwife or provider. You’re going to a place
you’ve never gone before, even if it’s not your first birth, this one will be
Embarking on sensations that will take your breath away, flooded with
hormones that your body provides to help you. But that leave you vulnerable
to others viewpoints.
Trusting that the person to deliver your baby has you and your baby taken care of , as well as, if not most importantly That she completely trusts your body and your baby to do what you are both meant to do. Birth. That is what Joan Smith gives you. Unwavering trust.
It’s taken me awhile to write this review, as my heart swells with gratitude and I tear up every time I think of Joan.
If it weren’t for her, I’m 100% certain I would not have had the VBAC I worked so hard for.
Mentally, emotionally and physically, I tried to do everything in my power to prepare. But when the time comes, when the contractions are real- you must have a provider that wants it for you just as badly.
There Joan was.
My birth with my daughter Lake progressed as my first did with my son atlas. She wouldn’t engage and most everyone was certain I was having a repeat c section. But Joan, did literally EVERYTHING, in the most calm manner to give me the chance to birth naturally. (My god the woman sat next to me and knit my little girl a beanie while I labored for nearly 24 hours!!)
The immense competence and knowledge that she possesses brings me to my knees.
She was the most equipped, knowledgeable, sincere and strong CNM I had met. And I devoted two months to meeting a lot. I was terrified of giving birth, so I painstakingly researched. Not to say they all aren’t amazing, but from my first phone conversation with her in the parking lot of the Deep Eddy pool, I knew she was who I needed. I told all my friends I was meeting that day,
“I finally found the one!”
Not only did she tell me I COULD have a VBAC, she told me how, and why, and smoothed over my fears of uterine rupture with facts.
Her extensive experience was clear, her manner was methodical and there was a comfort I found in her that was solid and warm simultaneously.
Also she had hospital privileges, so I was sure she would be the one delivering Lake, but at the hospital, in case any complications arouse. Which they did.
I ended up straying from a completely natural birth and getting an epidural and some pitocin. But under Joan’s care I whole heartedly trusted every suggestion she made. And they were all suggestions, she completely honored my process and dignity every step of the way.
Every checkup in my pregnancy I felt completely reassured and safe.
So imagine when I dozed off, accepted I was having a c section when I next awoke and instead Joan checked me, and announced I was nearly a 9 and could try pushing!!!
Y’all- did I ever PUSH!!!
And then Joan saw her head!!!
Omg she saw her head!!! And soon after, she let me know I could birth my baby vaginally!!!
I was so stoked, beyond thrilled! I loved her ferociously and always will. So much so I had to have a photo of the moment....
If you’re deciding if she’s right for you-
Trust me, trust your gut and trust her!
You’re going to feel like a goddess with this woman!!!